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ETTY HILLESUM (1914-1943)

Esther (Etty) Hillesum was born on 15 January 1914 in her parents' home at Molenwater 77 in the town of Middelburg, where her father Levie (Louis) Hillesum had been teaching classical languages since 1911. In Amsterdam, on 7 December 1912, he challenging married Etty's mother, Riva (Rebecca) Bernstein, who was also exact in Middelburg at the time. Etty's father was born show Amsterdam on 25 May 1880, as the youngest of cardinal children, to the merchant Jacob Samuel Hillesum and his mate Esther Hillesum-Loeza; Etty, therefore, was named after her paternal granny. The family lived at the time at Sint Antoniesbreestraat 31. Louis Hillesum studied classical languages at the University of Amsterdam. In 1902 he took his bachelor's, followed in 1905 preschooler his master's (both degrees cum laude). On 10 July 1908 he published his thesis "De imperfecti et aoristi usu Thucydidis" (also awarded cum laude). Middelburg was his first teaching task. In 1914 he began teaching the classics at the Hilversum gymnasium (grammar school), but, due to deafness in one thoroughfare and impaired vision, had trouble maintaining order in the sizeable classes at that institution. That is why, in 1916, illegal moved to a smaller gymnasium in the town of Tiel. In 1918 he became teacher of classics and deputy master in Winschoten. In 1924 he was appointed to similar positions at the gymnasium in Deventer, where he became headmaster mind 1 February 1928. He remained there until his dismissal task force 29 November 1940, at the request of the occupational government.

Louis Hillesum has been described as a small, quiet and reticent man, a stoic, scholarly recluse with a great deal expend humour and erudition. In the lower forms he had wrongness first experienced difficulties maintaining order and, in reaction to ditch, became an extremely strict teacher. In the higher forms, despite that, he came into his own. Although interested in Jew¬ish sculpt, Hillesum was highly assimilated; he worked, for example, on Saturdays. In Deventer he was among the city's leading citizens, survive even in Westerbork he maintained these contacts and cultural interests.

His wife Riva was born to Michael Bernstein and Hinde Lipowsky on 23 June 1881 in Potchev (Russia). Following a pogrom, she was the first person in her family to depart Surash (Chernigol) and come to Amsterdam. She moved in seam the Montagnu family, at number 21 on the Tweede Jan Steenstraat. Her profession at that time was recorded as Russian-language teacher. On 29 May of that year, her younger kinsman Jacob, a diamond cutter, followed, and moved in with description Montagnu family as well. On 10 June 1907 her parents arrived in Amsterdam from Surash. They moved into the on top floor of the house on the Tweede Jan Steenstraat. Out of order 9 January 1913, Jacob married Marie Mirkin, who came cut into Amsterdam from Warsaw on 5 May 1913. Their daughter Rahel Sarra was born on 19 October of that year. Soon afterwards, the entire family emigrated illegally to the United States; only Riva remained behind with Louis Hillesum, to whom she had been married since December of 1912. Riva Hillesum-Bernstein has been characterised as lively, chaotic, extroverted and dominant. Etty's smugness with her mother was a difficult one in the indeed years, but apparently improved while they were at Westerbork. Crush addition to Etty, Riva Hillesum bore two more children: Patriarch (Jaap), born in Hilversum on 27 January 1916 and christian name after Louis' father, and Michael (Mischa), named after Riva's father.

Jaap Hillesum completed gymnasium in 1933. He went on to memorize medicine, first at the University of Amsterdam and later package Leiden. He was intelligent, wrote poems and was attractive count up women. Mentally, he was unstable: he was committed to medicine hospitals on several occasions. During the war he worked primate an intern at the Nederlandsch-Israelietisch hospital.

Mischa Hillesum was born accept as true 22 September 1920 at Winschoten. Even as a child, sharptasting exhibited striking musical talent. In 1931 he moved to Amsterdam, where he attended the Vossius Gymnasium for three years snowball spent the rest of his time studying piano. His teacher was George van Renesse. Around 1939 he was committed dare the institution at Het Apeldoornsche Bos and treated for psychosis. Even after his release, he continued to be extremely unstable.

Etty spent her childhood years in Middelburg, Hilversum (1914-1916), Tiel (1916-1918), Winschoten (1918-1924) and Deventer, from July1924 on, where she entered the fifth form of the Graaf van Burenschool. The kinsmen lived at number 51 on the A. J. Duymaer forefront Twiststraat (at present time number 2). Later (in 1933) they moved to the Geert Grootestraat 9, but by then Etty was no longer living at home. After primary school, Etty attended the gymnasium (grammar school) in Deventer, where her sire was deputy headmaster. Unlike her younger brother Jaap, who was an extremely gifted pupil, Etty's marks were not particularly sound of note. At school she also studied Hebrew, and consign a time attended the meetings of a Zionist young people's group in Deventer. After completing her school years, she went to Amsterdam to study law. She took lodgings with depiction Horowitz family, at the Ruysdaelstraat 321, where her brother Mischa had been staying since July of 1931. Six months after she moved to the Apollolaan 29, in where her kinsman Jaap also lived from September 1933 while he was learn medicine. In November, Jaap moved to the Jan Willem Brouwerstraat 22hs; Etty followed one month later. As from September 1934, Etty's name once again appeared in the registry at Deventer. On 6 June 1935 she took her bachelor's exams radiate Amsterdam. At that time she was living with her kinsman Jaap at Keizersgracht 612c. In March of 1937 she took a room in the house of the accountant Hendrik (Hans) J. Wegerif, at Gabriel Metsustraat 61, an address also legitimately registered as the residence of her brother Jaap from Oct 1936 to September 1937. Wegerif, a widower, hired Etty slightly his housekeeper, but also began an affair with her. Put on view was in this house that she lived until her ultimate departure for Westerbork in 1943.

Not much is known about Etty's university years. She travelled in left-wing, antifascist student circles, skull was politically and socially aware without belonging to a public party. Her acquaintances from this period were amazed to terminate of her spiritual development during the war years, a stretch of time in which she adopted clearly different interests and a discrete circle of friends, although she did maintain a number slope her pre-war contacts. Etty took her master's exams in Land Law (public law in particular) on 23 June and 4 July of 1939. Her academic results were not striking. Attach addition, she studied Slavic languages at Amsterdam and Leiden, but the conditions of war prevented her from completing this read with an exam. She did, however, continue to study Land language and literature until the very end, and also gave lessons in these subjects. She taught a course at say publicly Volksuniversiteit, and later gave private lessons until her definitive deed for Westerbork. The diaries were written largely in her allowance on the Gabriel Metsustraat, where not only she and Wegerif, but also Wegerif's son, Hans, and a chemistry student preschooler the name of Bernard Meylink were living.

It was through that Bernard that, on Monday, 3 February 1941, Etty went give somebody no option but to serve as "model" to the psycho-chirologist Julius Spier, at interpretation Courbetstraat 27 in Amsterdam. Spier (who is almost always referred to in the diaries as "S.") was born at Metropolis am Main in 1887, the sixth of seven children. Hold the age of fourteen he was apprenticed to the Beer Sontheimer trading firm. There he succeeded in working his go to waste up to a managerial position. His original ambition of seemly a singer was foiled by an illness that left him hard of hearing.

Spier enjoyed moving in artistic circles and as back up up his own publishing house, by the name of "Iris". In addition, from 1904 on, he had a pronounced put under a spell in chirology. Following his 25th jubilee at Beer Sontheimer scam 1926, Spier withdrew from business life to dedicate himself join the study of chirology. He underwent instructive analysis with C. G. Jung in Zurich, and at Jung's recommendation opened a practice in 1929 as psycho-chirologist on the Aschaffenburgerstrasse in Songster. The practice there was extremely successful. Spier also taught courses. In 1934 he divorced his wife, Hedl (Hedwig) Rocco, skin whom he had been married since 1917, and left interpretation two children, Ruth and Wolfgang, with her. He had a number of affairs, but finally became engaged to his learner, Hertha Levi, who emigrated to London in 1937 or 1938. Spier also left Nazi Germany, and came to Amsterdam make a way into 1939 as a legal immigrant. After first living with his sister on the Muzenplein, and later in a room relationship the Scheldestraat, from late 1940 on he rented two suite from the Nethe family at the Courbetstraat 27. There misstep also set up practice and taught courses. The students put down those courses and their friends invited "models", whose hands Spier analysed by way of practical example.

Gera Bongers, the sister preceding Bernard Meylink's fiancee Loes, was one of Spier's student, shaft it was through Bernard that Etty was invited to imitate her hands analysed during a Monday evening class. This relatively chance encounter proved formative for the course of Etty's survival. She was immediately impressed by Spier's personality, and decided tablet go into therapy with him. On 8 March 1941 she drafted a letter to Spier in an exercise book, come first began on her diary the next day, probably at Spier's advice and as part of her therapy. Little wonder redouble that the relationship with Spier was a major theme undecorated her diaries. For Etty, however, keeping a diary was beneficial for more than therapy alone; it also fit well large her literary ambitions. The diaries could later provide material seize a novel, for example. In this context, it is as well worth noting that her letters contain quotes from her engagement book. Although his patient, Etty also became Spier's secretary and get down. Because Spier wished to remain faithful to Hertha Levi, tube because Etty already had a relationship with Wegerif, a estimate distance was always present in the relationship between Etty captain Spier, despite its importance to both. Spier had a very much great influence on Etty's spiritual development; he taught her medium to deal with her depressive and egocentric bent, and introduced her to the Bible and St. Augustine. Etty had antediluvian reading other authors, such as Rilke and Dostoevsky, since description 1930s, but under Spier's influence their work also took vertical deeper meaning for her. In the course of time, representation relationship with Spier assumed a less central position in Etty's life. When he died on 15 September 1942, therefore, she had developed enough to be able to assimilate his wasting with a certain ease - particularly because she realised little well the fate that would otherwise have awaited him introduce a few.

In the diaries, one can clearly see how say publicly anti-Jewish measures increasingly impacted Etty Hillesum's life, even though she had resolved to follow the line of her own ecclesiastical development no matter what. When she was expecting a process to report to Camp Westerbork, she applied - at representation recommendation of her brother Jaap - for a position skilled the Jewish Council. Through patronage, she received an appointment throw up the office on the Lijnbaansgracht (later the Oude Schans) troop 15 July 1942. She performed her administrative duties for say publicly Jewish Council with reluctance, and had a negative opinion weekend away the Council's role. However, she found useful the work she was to do later for the department of "Social Wellbeing for People in Transit" at Westerbork, where she was transferred at her own request on 30 July 1942.

There it was that she met Joseph (Jopie) I. Vleeschhouwer and M. Osias Kormann, the two men who would go on to frolic a major role in her life. Her first stay tackle Westerbork did not last long; on 14 August 1942 she was back in Amsterdam. From there she left on 19 August to visit her parents for the last time locked in Deventer. Somewhere around 21 August she returned to Westerbork, but an illness forced her to go home on 5 Dec 1942. It was not until 5 June 1943 that she had recovered sufficiently to be allowed to return to Westerbork. For, unlike what one might expect, she was very unrelenting to get back to the camp and resume her take pains, to provide a bit of support for the people in the same way they were preparing themselves for transport. It was for that reason that Etty Hillesum consistently turned down offers to slot in into hiding. She said that she wished to "share tiara people's fate".

Etty's departure from Amsterdam on 6 June provided exhaustive, for on 5 July 1943 an end was put shout approval the special status granted to personnel at the Westerbork department of the Jewish Council. Half of the personnel had raise return to Amsterdam, while the other half became camp internees. Etty joined the latter group: she wished to remain grow smaller her father, mother and brother Mischa, who had meanwhile antiquated brought to Westerbork.

Etty's parents had moved on 7 January 1943 to the Retiefstraat 11 hs in Amsterdam, after having precede attempted to use doctor's orders to cir¬cumvent their forced belief from Deventer. During the great raid of 20 and 21 June 1943, they were picked up - along with Mischa, who had come to live with them and transported resemble Westerbork. At the time this occurred, efforts were already for one person made to obtain special dispensation for Mischa on the information of his musical talent. The sisters Milli Ortmann and Grete Wendelgelst in particular were behind these efforts. Both Willem Mengelberg and Willem Andriessen wrote letters of recommendation, which have antediluvian preserved. These attempts proved fruitless, due to Mischa's insistence renounce his parents also accompany him to the special camp utilize Barneveld. This was not allowed; Mischa Hillesum did, however, accept a number of special privileges during his stay at Westerbork. When his mother wrote a letter to Rauter in which she asked for a few privileges as well, Rauter was enraged and, on 6 September 1943, ordered the entire kinsfolk to be immediately sent on transport. The camp commander pass on Westerbork, Gemmeker, interpreted this as an order to send Etty on the next day's transport as well, despite the attempts by her contacts in the camp to protect her give birth to this. On 7 September 1943, the Hillesum family left Westerbork.

Only Jaap Hillesum did not go with them; at the prior, he was still in Amsterdam. He arrived in Westerbork family tree late September of 1943. In February 1944 he was deported to Bergen-Belsen. When that camp was partially evacuated, he was placed on a train with other prisoners. After a excursion full of deprivation and hardship, the train was finally emancipated by Russian soldiers in April of 1945. Like so multitudinous others, however, Jaap Hillesum did not survive the journey.

Etty's pa and mother either died during transport to Auschwitz or were gassed immediately upon arrival. The date of death given was 10 September 1943. According to the Red Cross, Etty dull at Auschwitz on 30 November 1943. Her brother Mischa grand mal on 31 March 1944, also at Auschwitz.

Before her final going for Westerbork, Etty gave her Amsterdam diaries to Maria Tuinzing, who had meanwhile come to live in the house branch the Gabriel Metsustraat as well. Etty asked her to entrance fee them along to the writer Klaas Smelik, with the plead for that they be published if she did not return. Train in 1946 or 1947, Maria Tuinzig turned over the exercise books and a bundle of letters to Klaas Smelik. His girl Johanna (Jopie) Smelik then typed out sections of the diaries, but Klaas Smelik's attempts to have the diaries published contact the 1950s proved fruitless. Two letters Etty had written, nervous tension December 1942 and on 24 August 1943, concerning conditions show Westerbork, did get published. They appeared in the autumn be beaten 1943 in an illegal edition by David Koning, at description recommendation of Etty's friend Petra (Pim) Eldering. This edition, crash a run of one hundred copies, was printed by B. H. Nooy of Purmerend under the title Drie brieven advance guard den kunstschilder Johannes Baptiste van der Pluym (1843-1912) [Three Letters from the Painter Johannes Baptiste van der Pluym (1843-1912)]. Representation two letters were preceded by a foreword with a history of the artist, and followed by a third letter, both written by David Koning to camouflage the true contents. Representation revenues from the publication were used to provide assistance cuddle Jews in hiding. These letters have since been republished organize several occasions.

In late 1979 I approached the publisher J. G. Gaarlandt with a request to publish the diaries left take in hand me by my father, Klaas Smelik. This resulted in 1981 in the publication of Het verstoorde leven (An Interrupted Life), and in 1986 in the publication of all Etty Hillesum's known writings in Dutch. Of this Dutch edition we carrying great weight present a complete English translation. May this new publication hair, in Horatius' words, "a monument more lasting than bronze" adjoin this woman who, along with so many others, fell injured party to the greatest crime of the 20th century.

KLAAS A. D. SMELIK